Bumbed out RN
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Registered: Jul 2006
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Yes, nursing is beyond hell. I have only been a nurse for 3 months and I already hate it. I wake up on the mornings I have to go to work and think, "I get to be on my feet all day, run around like a chicken with my head cut off while my lazy-ass preceptor reads magazines, checks her email, and speaks Farsi on the phone all day, or is helping her other Persian friend with her patients, having to pee, being nauseous from hunger because it's 3 and I haven't had a break, behind on charting, etc, etc, ", you all know the routine. If you can honestly say you like that job then you have to be a masochist and definitely not like yourself. The atmosphere is beyond dysfunctional. A couple of times I've started to hint around to another nurse about how bad the job sucks, but I always get this blank stare like they don't get what I'm saying. I feel so out of place where I work -- no comradery with any of the nurses on my unit. I work my ass off, my preceptor will occasionally ask "Are you OK?" her favorite question like she's trying to be nice, but then I tell her I haven't done one flowsheet and it's already 4 --instead of offering help, she will just say, "oh, you have some more DR's orders, you need to go look at them", then she just casually goes back to her magazine. Or she comes up and says, "You forgot to do such and such, so I did it for you". Wow, thanks a lot. She is well aware that I'm behind, well aware that I haven't eaten, but does she care??? Hell no!!! Do these bipolar/dysfunctional women get off on watching someone that is obviously struggling to keep up-- knowing full well how hard it is?? I find that sick. Do they have a conscience? Were they always this way or did this awful job taint them beyond repair?
I would never recommend nursing to someone I love because it is truly beyond hell. I am on my own after I get back from vacation next week -- maybe it will be better, I don't know. All I know now is that I have to take one day at a time and formulate an exit strategy for down the road. I need to get some experience and I don't want to look bad by quitting right after orientation. I seriously would go work at Nordstrom or Macy's selling make-up -- it would be a lot better than this job. If I could make the same money, I would.
This job is also bad for your mental and physical health. I've always been very health conscious, work out, do sports, am pretty athletic -- I was just diagnosed with hypertension which I told my DR is definitely stress, so am on meds for that. I now have low back pain and pelvic pain and found out I have pelvic varicosities, probably from being on my feet for extended periods of time, and just started on zoloft for anxiety. The zoloft has started to kick in and helps take the edge off the stress at work -- so that has been a lifesaver, but I don't like taking meds.
Bottom line -- the only kind of person that could love the abuse of nursing is someone that is used to abuse and has learned to live with it. But I'm not and will never be. One thing I have to add -- I do love the actual patient care -- you know, the few minutes of your day you get to actually have contact with your patient. But it's everything else -- the dysfunctional coworkers and the work load -- that really sucks!!!!
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